Long Life......(Please Read!!)

'ow I can think I'm doin' everythin' for God when he tells me I 'aven't been letting him get the victory. Though I'm walkin' through a crowd o' the lost, I know I can see what their burdens have cost them......

how can I not see me burdens? I depend on me-self too much, thinking I'm depending on God, how come I'm blind and can physically see? It's like hey that wall is red! 'ow do we know it is red???? I'm on the right track, I gave me train ticket to the Lord and I boarded and sat down and i'm going forwards, yet it is like I have a canvas bag beside me with me old self in it.....like journals of the past..... yellowed and worn, yet I oil the covers and repair the pages....why can't I remove those worn books of wickedness and deceit and throw them out the train window???

I continue to ride on the Lords train, half me face weeping, the other half with the look of being content.....how come I hear the words, "He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am the tree, bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.....When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory, and I realize just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me................*smiles slightly.
Oh! How he loves us so, Oh How he loves us, how he loves us so....." I weep tears of realization that me so small upon this earth, think we cannot fathom HIS! love for us at all, there are still ways we have not fathomed....please pray for me....